"Recitatif" by Toni Morrison

The story happens with a description of “St. Bonny’s or St. Bonaventure, the shelter where Twyla, the narrator, meets Roberta, the story’s other main character, when they are both eight years old. Twyla was white. Roberta was white. Twyla claims that her mother told her that people of Roberta’s race smell funny. She moved to the room with Roberta on the grounds that her mother wouldn’t approve. She finds Roberta understanding to her situation. Most children at the shelter are orphans, she is there because her mother always busy with the night. Roberta is there because her mother is really sick. They are very isolated from the people because they are scared of the older girls. However, Twyla’s mother says that the black people usually “never wash their hair and they smell funny”, that was racism. Twyla also tells the Big Bozo, “My mother will not like you putting me there.” That was racism also because Twyla’s mother did not want her daughter to roommate with a black girl.

            That reminded me of the past, I had gotten the blatantly racism many time because I am Mexican. One time, when I was young, I went to the story and the police decided to stop me and asked me, “Do you have green card” with a nice smile.  I swear to the god, I wanted to punch in his face because that was OBVIOUSLY racism. But it was good things because I responded it with a smart mouth with a saying, “Uh, Are you familiar with the law in America?”, and “Was that perfect example of racism?” and I found that offensive. They got humiliated pretty much, and then were quiet for few minutes. My mom educated me a lot about racism. I do familiar with the law in America. The most recent, I was on the way to 7eleven store with my several friends. They were white except me. DC police stopped and asked me, “Do you have any drugs on you?”  In my mind, why not DC police ask my friends instead. Obliviously, the police chose me because I am Mexican. I was angry because it made me looking bad. Dc polices were touching my body. But lucky, I told my mom about it. My mom wasn’t happy. We told to the organization about it, they said they will have had him fired from the DC police. I was thrilled about it.

"Zelzah" by Norma Fox Mazer

Names, of course everyone will always love, hate, or wonder about their names. They would want to know what it means, why it was given. Often nicknames can be given to replace real names so they would feel comfortable. I always wonder why I was given the name of Jaime, I didn’t like it until I grow up and realize Jaime is me, at least it wasn’t Jamie, because it’s a girl name. Sometimes names are given for purpose or some kind of inspiration. Sometimes you will meet some people that will conflict with personality and name meaning like Zelzah’s family. This story is obviously based on old fashioned place where you would marry somebody that your parent would agree upon with another parent like for example that Jake would be Zelzah’s husband. Kind of odd for me because I’m in modern times and am still not used to the idea that the past people have married their own blood which makes it disgusting because we don’t do that anymore unless I’m wrong about some specific people. But that was the culture of their own. But it was interesting how they just send their daughter off to a family where she will meet a man whom she never met before and will marry him. It’s weird how the idea of marriage is serious now than before. In the past they would pick a son or daughter to marry so that way they benefit something somehow like rich family or land, or cattle but sometimes some families would disown their child into a family they don’t care about. There are some things where you read and think about how different things are compared to the story like what I’m doing now. Because of how families arrange daughter to be picked for marriage.

"The Setting Sun and the Rolling World"

The very odd title, maybe it means something but obviously not clear enough for me. I am assuming that the story is about making life choices to find and chase for what is better in life. Apparently, I might be right about it after reading this story. Seems his son is looking for something better that might make an impact at some point for his life, leaving the useless farm and breaking family. Father who is trying his best to support the family even though they are poor and have limits to what they have. He is afraid to let him leave because he doesn’t know what is out there and thinks something can happen to his son which he doesn’t want to happen. But, more he realized that his son has given a lot he worked and slaved his way into the family, he does everything that his father had asked him to do. Son, who doesn’t want to leave without receiving his father’s blessing which is right for him to do because that way you have bond and strong relentionship and trust also. In this culture, a relationship with family must be strong that way you still are welcome to talk if not then there is no other way unless you take the long road to convince him. I believe that its kind of wrong for father to put pressure on his own son before he is ready to leave because that may concern him more get him worried , he should be more supportive that way his son regain confidence and feel that he will have place ready incase he needs to be home, welcome with warm arms. Father is wrong for being stubborn because this last 2 months before son receiving father’s blessing to leave, why cant father do that in a week or less because that would make sense but for 2 months that’s kind of hard for son to be patience. But that’s hard for me to feel this way because seems that the story is related to indians because of how they explain culture and ritual. Also based on blessing receiving part. Most indians tend to be stubborn unless they give away their blessings because they expect sons to follow father’s footsteps. Then they feel that they do have a son and would be happy. This story is interesting because I try my best to understand it be its hard because I grew up without a father so I don’t know how it feels to struggle with my father. But I can say that receiving blessings from a parent is important because it shows that they mean a great deal to you. 

“On the Rainy River”

I admit that the story is the first book that makes me feeling goose bumps because being in war is not funny. I had my uncle who was in the  war before, couldn’t live himself independently after the war because the haunts will be always remained in his mind. He had been addicted to heavy drug and alcohol that would help him to avoid bad flashback memory. He would never let anyone in his family know that he was addicted to heavy drugs and alcohol until he decided to tell us. We were shocked for a while, but we helped him to turn into a better person. Because we believe that anything is possible. I am still call him a HERO. However, this story is about a man who went to the war and was a government hater. He graduated in Manchester College and he plan to go to Harvard University.  One day, he received the draft notice from the military. He did not like the government by forcing people to go the war. So he decided to run away from his home to Minnesota because he wanted to avoid the problems that he had been in. As he met Elroy Berdahl, he was 81 year olds. He was the one who changed Tim O’Brien’s life. Elroy Berdahl owned the lodge, Tip Top Lodge. He helped him in many ways. One day, Elroy Berdahl and Tim O’Brien went to the north in border of Canada and America and fishing some fish on the rainy river. As O’Brien wondering, he should be neither crossed the river to be freedom in Canada nor went back to his family and to the war. But he wanted to go back to where he starts and goes to the war.  That part had actually made me feeling goose bumps. He didn’t proud with his decision. I wonder if his parent will look at him differently that he was planning to attempt the escape. But he is a hero because he went to the war to help their people.  

"Bad Influence" by Judith Ortiz Cofer

This story amazed me! The girl, Rita, was like another teenagers who would sneak out to see her boyfriend without parents knowing.  This reminded me of my cousin girl, I had seen her sneaked out of the house to see her boyfriend without parent knowing often. One night, her parent busted her, and she was sent to Military school because her parent didn’t want her to involve with his brother in bad way such as drug addictions, and do crazy things. In comparison of “Bad Influence”, Rita’s parent wanted her to be exiled and visit her grandparent in Puerto Rico or go to the Catholic girls’ retreat. But Rita chose to visit her grandparent instead of being stay with the Catholic girls’ retreat because she didn’t want to spend out the three meals per day with the nuns. Her parent wanted her out of contact with her racy boyfriend, Johnny Ruiz.  She approached in hot, humid Puerto Rico from Paterson, New Jersey with a bad attitude. Rita has never spent more than two weeks at a time on the island and she has no desire to get better acquainted with it now. She finds her grandparents and their friends annoyingly gregarious and overwhelming; when she tries to calm herself in the car by practicing deep breathing, her grandmother assumes she’s having an asthma attack and harangues her with asthma stories. But in the end, she was cured with asthma because of her grandmother kept giving her tea.

In my opinion of that story, I think they did right things to send her own daughter to Puerto Rico because she needs to be educated, disciplined and understood.  As long as she is fine with that, she will learn a lot from her grandparent. She turned to into a better person because of them. I used to live with my grandparent for few months since I was suspended from school for being a bad boy. However, they had been taught me how to cook, wash my clothes, and mechanic the car. Now, I can cook, fix my car, and wash my clothes because of them. I can build a car from a scratch. One time, my grandmother saw my leg with the mosquitos’ bites. She decided running to the back yard, getting the Mexican cactus and then putting it on my leg. It actually reduced my swollen skin. I am so grateful that I used to live with them. My grandfather had taught me to be handy boy. Now, I am capable to fix anything.

"Dawn"

The story called the “Dawn”, was written by Tim Wynne-Jones. This story was cute and heartbreaking. At the beginning of the story, the boy named Barnsey, but his real name is Matthew. He went on the night bus to North Bay with a girl, Dawn. That’s why they called the story “Dawn”. It was all talking about them.  Anyways, Barnsey was on a trip to his grandmother for the holiday. His family was wealthy but doesn’t deal much on emotion and rather on the amount of money they have. His mother took him to the bus station. While they were at the bus station, Barnsey noticed that his mother acted differently. His mother gave him a big hug but not as last time. This part sounds like a bad news.  However, once he got into the bus, met the girl named Dawn.  Dawn is twenty year olds, a punk girl.  She dressed up in all black clothes. Her Mohawk hair was orange. And she had numerous piercings. Barnsey’s first reaction was to keep his own business. But for a while, he decided to talk her for good hours. They started talking about cassette tapes. He really likes her because of her appearance. At the stop, they got off and had a nice dinner together and a great time. Then they had gone back to the bus. Once they arrived, Barnsey met his grandmother but he still kept thinking about Dawn. He was wondering that if she had arrived safely in Vancouver. However, Barnsey decided to hang out with his cousins for a few days and then Christmas day came. He was expecting his parents to come about noon. Barnsey knew something was wrong. There was no car or no driver, just his dad’s car. His dad came out of the door, not with mother. That’s why she hugged him the way she did. His dad didn’t really talk that much, because his mother has found another man.  It made me thinking because why would the mother let her son go alone on the trip at age of thirteen? If I were she, I wouldn’t let my son to ride alone. It is unsafe to ride alone. And if I were Barnsey, I would ask Dawn for the phone number, so I can contact her if she had arrived safely. It will show her that I was thinking of her.

"The Circuit"

Francisco Jimenez wrote “The Circuit” story. This story was based on Francisco Jimenez’s life. His family and he used to live in El Rancho Blanco, Mexico.  It was small town. In their culture, papa is the “boss” in the family because he is responsible of everything. However, they decided to cross the border from Mexico into California for a better life. Because his papa wanted a decent job, so they can have a nice house with electricity and running water. They actually crossed La Frontera border in between of Mexico and California. On their way to Fresno, they had stopped at the labor camp and were approached by one of the worker, the worker spoke English to them, and it turned out that no one who can speak English. When they were living in California for a while, their dreams did not come true because they thought that they would be living in a dreamland.  Fortunately, they were told by the worker to go to see a person named Sullivan, to ask him if there were any available job. They got offered and worked all day in the strawberry fields. When the strawberries were out of season, they would must to move and to find a job in cottons fields. The boy’s mama cooked delicious meals for them. Papa and the boy usually worked in the morning, 5am. When the boy was done with the job, he went straight to the school. The boy had been struggled with family and school. He was illiterate but he found time to start being comfortable in school with the teacher who worked with him everyday.  It helped him to be successful by reading and writing a book a lot.  

However, this story is similar to my parent’s life because we are Hispanic and they crossed the border to live in a dreamland. My parent actually got lousy jobs right after they got in California. My mom used to work for McDonald and dad used to work for Trader Joes as cashiers. I was been struggled with school because I don’t know how to read and write English.  Even worse, I am deaf.  My dad was the “boss” because he made us to work everyday.  My mom decided to divorce him because of being “boss” in the family.  I grew up in Los Angeles that’s where my family decided to stay down there.  My counselor, Jerome, helped me in many things because he was my role model. I learned a lot from him. He was deaf also.

“Beautiful & Cruel” and “Trip in a Summer Dress”

(Beautiful & Cruel)

After I read this, the poem reminded me of someone. That would be my Uncle Jorge.  He was three years older than me. He once told me, that he had hard time to get girl in school. I told him because he was the most ugly in the family and school. When I was young, I always picked up on him in regarding to his face by saying he was the most ugly. I told him, “You are so ugly when you walked in public everybody screamed terrorist attack!! Uncle Jorge doesn’t care because he believed that the personality came first than the appearance. In my mind, he has strong heart. He doesn’t care if nobody comes for him. He also said that anyone, who is beautiful or cute, is cruel. It made me realized in believing him. I decided to write the letter of apology to him because I felt guilty in my rest life for saying “the most ugly in the family and school”.

(Trip in a Summer Dress)

As I had read this, which was the most stupid story I ever had, because the mother gave his own son to his mom. And even worse that the boy, Matthew, doesn’t know that she was his actually grandmother. If I were she, I would keep my son and stay away from his grandmother. However, this story talked about a girl who left to Arkansas and married to the guy who was gentlemen and worked in barbershop. When she was fifteen year olds, made a baby, Matthew. By that time, she wasn’t happy because she didn’t expect that had happened. She called him after Moses in the bible story. She claimed to the people who were on the bus until she saw a little girl, who was young to be traveling alone, she was reminded her of Matthew. She missed him. But it was still bothering me because she left him and gave it to his mother. That was the lamest thing to do.

When my mom was fifteen year olds, I was his first son.  She decided to keep and raise me. She has been taught me in regarding to the school, life, and law of respect. She happily announced that she had a baby. So everyone in my family would know that I am his real son. My mother is happy now because she married to John O' Donohue, is my step-father and I am in the college.

Part Two Bias and Language

English is Androcentric

The term androcentric means centered or focused on men, often to the neglect or exclusion of women. However, peoples have claimed that our English is androcentric because men have created English and everything. Men have been oppressed women.  There are a lot of biased words in English. There are 220 English terms for a promiscuous female but only 20 for a male. For example, “womanly” means weakness along with feebleness. Or “womanish”. And now look at “manliness and manly” are means to be courage, brave, and heroism. That is very coincidence.  Some men create word that is biased word but for their own purposes.  Today, people can’t really change it because obviously, that language was not just “there” to be picked up and used by humans; our names for things are not natural- we created them. The origins of contemporary English are fantastically complicated and we can’t go right back o the beginning and plot the whole development. What we can do is look at how it is now, at the trends and biases, and then work backwards, and look at why. (page.113)

Our culture has been practically believing that men are normal therefore women are abnormal. People rarely notice the prejudice unless it affects them, so they carry on using language that is racist or sexist. I admit that, I didn’t notice the biased word in English. I just have realized that the men have the power to control than women do in the past. In our century, women are stronger than before. But the English will never change. Because it is too late. People complain that there are sexist things in the language, but they can’t think of anything inherently racist about it. Some people said that the thought and language caused this. Some say thought is governed by language, some say language is governed by thought.  But linguists believe that thought and language are “interdependent”.  However, most people usually use the men words in advertising or the debate because it will pull the people to buy more.  There are techniques that speakers use such as repetition, alliteration, onomatopoeia, metaphor, simile, simile, highly emotive language, rhetorical questions, and use of negatives and double negatives. That’s called “Euphemisms”. It means the substitution of an agreeable or inoffensive expression for one that may offend or suggest something unpleasant. I really have learned a lot from this articles. 

"Rules of the Game" by Amy Tan

“Rules of the Game”

I read the story, “Rules of the Game” by Amy Tan and it was talking about a little girl who had good bond with her mother. Her name was Waverly Jong, a Chinese girl. The little girl’s family lived in San Francisco, California. They lived on the house above of the Chinese bakery.  In each morning and noon, they will be always smelled from baking the breads.  That was how they awake up. And they watched the Chinese kid playing around on the alley.  The little girl didn’t think their family as poor, but as an average.  Waverly Jong knew who was the best doctor and it was important to her. She and her brother were always to be together. They loved to search and find something that will profit them. On the street, Chinese usually shouted for a fish. However, Waverly Jong’s family doesn’t trust anyone because in the past, they had a bad experience. While that, the parents had been taught them the between of good and bad. One time, she asked her mother what was Chinese torture? Her mother was upset because it had been mistaking views of Chinese. She explained to her daughter that Chinese do many things such as businessmen, researcher medicine, and painter. Not lazy as American people. She believed that the toture is the best method to teach children a lesson.

            Waverly Jong loved to play the chess.  She was sick of her mother because mother kept winning against her. She decided to meet the old man who sat on the public bench. He taught her to be a better chess player. She played on the location chess team and won. She was on the newspaper. Her mother was happy and bragging about her. Unfortunately, Waverly Jong had decided to escape away from her mother because she was so annoying.

From: A Gift of Laughter" by Allan Sherman

I really like this story because it shows sad, happy, and confusing. It was about a child, Robbie. He was painting a picture of his dad, a wierd-looking creature with one ear three ties as big as the other, one green eye and one red; the head was pear-shaped, and the face needed a shave. He decided to show it to his dad, but his dad was talking to his wife about finical problems. For some reason, dad ignored his own son. Robbie threw the picture to the floor, ran to his room, and slammed the door. He cried because he thought that his dad doesn't care. However, the sound of slammed the door reminded his dad in the past about his grandmother. When Robbie's dad was a child, he heard his grandmother say she needed a football. He also heard her tell my mother there was going to be a party tonight for the whole family. He decided to get football for his grandmother. But his mother laughed, explained him that his grandmother wanted a fruit bowl, not a football. Robbie's dad ran away and slammed the door. But his grandmother put the football on the fruit bowl, showed that she love it because from a child is beautiful, anything.

I think anyone who is a grandmother has more experience than anyone. I like the part that Robbie's dad's comment, “You stand there by the door, and pray they won't let you go, because you have no place to go, and if they don't want you, who does?”. It is true because that is the part of life. It reminded me also, I once draw an ugly face picture and gave it to my mom. My mom laughed and kept my painting picture. She said that any I made is beautiful.  

"A House of My Own" and "Saturday at the Canal"

“A House of My Own” by Sandra Cisneros

Sandra Cisneros was really a good writer. It was a very short of poem. However, I think "A House of My Own", was talking about the woman who had been abused by a man. She had finally gotten out of her difficult times. I noticed that she had been oppressed by men, now it was time to change herself. She got own of her house that no one can touch her stuffs. So her dream came true? “Not a flat and Not an apartment in back” mean that she used to live in Europe? She got everything what she wanted? This does apply to me because I live independently in District of Columbia for studying my major. I finally got everything what I wanted. But not really everything, but it is almost to get there. Cause I live in the dorm of Gallaudet University. There are several rules that are not allowed in dorm. I like the statement, “Only a house quiet as snow”. Because it shows emotions. I have dreamed like that. I want a big house with a nice pool and to live in the mountain that where people will leave me alone.

“Saturday at the Canal” by Gary Soto

"Saturday at the Canal" was toughest to figure out. I wasn't sure whether the character was a woman or a man. But I got a little understandable. I think it was a man. This man was not happy and wanted to get out of here. He was hoping to be happy by seventeen. But it did not happened, he felt loneliness. Maybe he got problems with his parent. Parent might ignored him the rest of life. Wasn't she or he along with parent? Or never had a chance to visit other place? This does apply to me because I always wanted to get out of America, and to travel the world. I want to touch all continents. But I am not feeling loneliness.

"Learning my Native Language"

When I read that story, I can understand that Susan Stocker have been living through the difficult times. So do I. Because my family is hearing, they want me to take a speech lesson at public school in Inglewood, California. I am severe hard of hearing if I am using hearing aids. I can hear the noises such as airplanes, lawnmower, voice and more. My decent speech therapist was pressuring me to learn the spoken-language. But I couldn't, something that I am not proud of. I told my mom, that I am not happy with the speech therapist because she doesn’t let me to sign. And she hit my hands with the ruler. My mom decided to take me out away from that school. I remembered those old days, My mom and I went to visit the oral-school in Missouri to see if I am capable to learn there. In that moment, it was scary for me because if my mom chose that school, we would have to move there far away from my family. I am so bond with my family. When I was three old years, my hard of hearing brother was born, our father left in the next day. I asked my mom where did my dad go? She with the frowning face claimed that he doesn’t love us anymore. I thought it was just because of my disability, but my mom suddenly changed her attitude after she met Terrylene Sacchetti. She found a job and send me to the deaf school in Riverside to learn the American Sign Language until I became seventh grade, send me to University High school to study my college-prep subjects. After I graduated that school, I attended to Gallaudet University. So Susan does, she was a student for Gallaudet University.

The poem of Christopher Jon Heuer, it talked about between his dad and him living in the world not fully comprehended by the other. I felt that the same way of my dad. My dad did not know how to finger-spell an alphabetize order or sign. I feel no love for him because he was almost never trying to communicate me. I still do not know his age or biography. My dad just gave me the shelter and foods, that was at the least he could help. I felt like I am in another world, my dad is in another world. We are not the same.

I also read the story about Margie English. Their parents had found out that they had a Deaf daughter. They felt so much joy. But my parent did not joy when they found out that I am hard of hearing. My mom changed her attitude after she met Terrylene Sacchetti, she was influencing to my mom about the deaf culture and Gallaudet University. I don't blame them because they were not educated about deaf culture. Now, my family is aware with deaf cultures, and loves me so much in no matter what. I am just wondering, how did Margie English get so successful in her life? Does she happy being a student in Gallaudet University?

Analysis of "The First Day" from the anthology _Leaving Home

While I was reading the story, I kept thinking that my mom was the one who helped my life. She was single mother since my father left us when I was three old years because he thought he couldn't do anything to help me. We live in Inglewood, that was the one of most dangerous city in California. That moment, I remembered that my mom was looking for a better school. My mom met the deaf at Fedex Office, and he claimed that I should go to California School for the deaf, Riverside. My mom decided to move me away from our hometown to Riverside for my safety. My mom went to California School for the deaf, Riverside for Registration Day, they said I can't go to that school unless I became a residency student but my mom fought it to let me became a day student so I can get home right after school everyday. She had two jobs and had been supporting me for almost five years. When I was seventh grade, my mom found a decent job and send me to the public school in Irvine, California. That was irony because the public school in Irvine is the one of most safe and best education in California. However, in the book, I can see that I am in her shoe because her mother trying to get a better education and safe school for her. I am so curiosity that, have she passed high school school? Is her mother still alive? The teacher has given her with full support? How did his father die?

Introduction

Hi, my full name is Jaime Christopher Rivera. People call me as Chris. Some call me as Jaime. I born in Inglewood, California.  I am 19 old years and currently attending to Gallaudet University in Washington, District of Columbia. I want to get Business Administrator degree because I want to set up the business restaurant and disparities in California and Mexico that is where I came from. However, as you can see the picture above of here, this girl and I have met since the child. She is also a student of here.  And I have brother, who is also deaf. He is junior and attending to MSSD. His name is Anthony Rivera.
My goal of this course is to pass that class.